down the memory lane

hmm.. effective Jan 8'th, i'll be 'kicked' out to another department within the organization i'm currently in. the thing about new department is, i don't really know what to expect. i heard tons of rumours and gossips bout how scary that department is. how the director of that department will make sure that each day u spend there is a living hell! her utmost and foremost objective of the day is simply just that! (*at least that is what i've been told.. sumthing like that... yeah, maybe i exagerated it a little bit there).

but anyways, my major concern is actually how well would i fit in there? will they accept me as i am? are they nice? or is there any possibility that i would be treated like an alien?

hmm... reality check, maybe i should do what the german do, i mean in order to be fit in i have to stand out. err.. not really, i take that back. honestly, i would like to please everybody but that is impossible, so i think the least that i could do is please myself first... and how is that? (fuh, pening.. ayat keling!). what i'm trying to say is, i don't know how to do that and almost forget how did i do it during my first day in the current department.

as i strol down the memory lane, this is what i remember... i remember pretended to be so damn nice to everybody. smiling at everybody when the fact is some of them didn't even smile back (like it matter anyway). but yeah, i remember looking stupid, asking lots of question (which ends up getting called stupid by the not so smart senior). i remember pretended as if i don't care when some of them would roll their eyes the moment i set my eye on them (yeah, u bitches.. i still remember that!). but after all that mental torture and severe damages on my fragile little hearty, i still manage to survive and yes i do forgive 'them' for that (ewah, cam aku tak buat salah kat diorang pun..).

but that's not all, i remember other things too! i remember mengular-ing together (pray for me my boss won't read this). i remember having a good time working together (hell.. yeah). 'luahan rasa' session gossiping about everything under the sun. and the jalan2 on-site mencari makan, that was the best! makan2 and mengepau-ing foods 'provided' at pantry. i remember kepoh session at cafe level 1, kecoh session at UO, and other places. celebrated suprise parties and stuffing our tummy with fooodssss.. (why foods jek yg saye remember?). hoh, memang best i tell u!

at this very moment, all that memory bliss sumhow makes me feel 'berat hati'. this department as oppose to that department is nothing but a little unit. this little unit not even listed as important in our organization however it is important to me. ohh so sad... sob..sob.. (i have to stop now or i'll go sentimental and u'll be boring and goes jiwang over nothing). Toodles!