kahwin at 50-50

The Lord of The Suffer Ring...

Hi all! Cepat pulak saya update blog kali ni. Less than 24 hours. What a record!

Kahwin at 50-50?! I remember i wrote something about getting married last night. Little that i know what i wrote would end-up me feeling guilty about such statement (Apalah punya pshyco sendiri tulis sendiri tension! haha).

To be honest, i give it a thought this morning and i think i'm not that ready actually. How can i be ready? i'm not even prepared to the life i'm living in. How can i be part of someone else life, let alone letting them in my life. My life is feeling way too chaotic lately. I'm a mess! I can't even get my 'shits' together now!

Just imagine these, and i bet u would agree getting married is not the best option now...

1. getting up EARLY in the morning! i'm not a morning person!
2. there's cooking, cleaning, laundry and ironing! i'm a working lady and a part time student! where got time?
3. i can't cook! maggi can lah!
4. cleaning? laundry? ironing? i always gets bibik to do it for me.. i can't even handle my own single-life household chores, how can i handle 2 person's chores? (kalau ada anak lagi lah bertambah)
5. what if he ask for *** ... i don't think i have to comment on this!
6. i'm having a very bad mood swing lately. kalau kahwin nanti my laki sure tension punya. silap hari bulan kena cerai. horror!!!
7. takut nanti kena control, so leceh nak buat apa2 pun.
8. walaupun pemalas, i'm a neat freak. kalau laki tu pengotor macam mana? (tho, i'm 90% sure my bf is a neat freak too - but susah jugak, nanti kalau saya yg sepah2 barang macam mana?)
9. nanti kena share semua barang. tanak share boleh tak?
10. etc, etc, etc.

I swear have a very long list actually. This is just 20% of the reasons why getting married is not the best option at the moment.

2009

Hm, it has been a year kan since i last updated this blog? Honestly, i almost forgot that i have one. Oklah, nak pendek kan cerita, tahun 2009 suam2 kuku je.. ada yg best and ada yg tak..

But 2009, seriously has changed me a lot... =)

1. Now, saya sudah pandai 'berchenta' -and the best part is dengan orang yg sepatutnye, dan yg paling tak disangka2, i'm in love with a man whom i thot i could never love.. *cewahhh.. ingat ni drama korea apa? sarang he yo! haha =D
2. MBA pun dah almost nak settle. InsyaAllah, hujung tahun ni siap lah kalau ada rezeki. Doakan saya dapat sambung PhD pulak ok?
3. Keje? hm, soalan susah. Buat mase ni keje je la pape pun, janji dapat duit banyak n halal. Duit 'banyak' tu memang wajib mention sebab saye memang mate duitan. *duit memang penting ok.. >p
4. I got a job at 'the department' that i always wanted to join, and now it feels like it doesn't matter anymore. To be honest, i so wanted to get out now. Anywhere but not here. *ironic kan? =(
5. Yes, dah jumpe banyak orang yg baik tahun ni, tapi jahat pun banyak jugak. Macam2 peel ade ok! yg tin kosong perasan pandai, yg pakai tudung tapi tak semayang n jahat gila, yg suke cucuk org sane lage org sini, mcm2 la! *huh, emo pulak... sorry ye... =)
6. Mereka2 yg berperangai tak sepatutnye ni pon dah berjaya mengubah persepsi saye terhadap seluruh umat manusia (over tak ayat ni?), tapi betullah.. teori yg kata manusia asalnye baik tu memang salah same skali.. memang ade k manusia yg dari lahiriah lagi dah jahat! =(
7. Tapi yang paling penting, disebabkan si jahat2 diatas saya mendapat sakit darah tinggi (yup, i would like to put that blame on all those budak jahat), tapi takpe sebab doktor yang merawat saya tu cute tahap dewa hokehh!! muda plak tu!!! lagi best pulak bila doktor tu kata saya 'grade A', 'fair', 'perfect figure' and bla bla bla... (eh, doktor ni mcm nak mengorat saya pulak?) *tak ke bertambah terpikat jadinya? =D
8. Apa2 pun berita paling hangat (ke dah hangit?), SAYA NAK KAWEN! hohh.. tu die statement! haha... =)

i'm sure uolls punye 2009 best2 belake.. =)
ciao.. muahhhhh.. big kiss!!!